An untold story of living, struggle, grace, and growing.

I have never written a blog before, shared a real life story and not sure I'm comfortable sharing this story. However, I've been trying to disagree with God about taking this action but I can not find peace. So here it goes the beginning... Born, raised and lived all her life as a minority female. Perhaps those details matter or perhaps they do not, but wanted to share. She grew up in a house that was a little over 900 square feet. There were 3 bedrooms, 1 bath a laundry room, sitting room/living room and kitchen. 6 people lived in the house most of the time but at different periods of time there were 8. Being in sports, doing chores and even homework was not anyone’s priority in the house. Went to church sometimes, but never understood the importance. Called chubby as a kid and slept allot. She knew she was loved, but everyone was just trying to survive. As she grew up she never wanted to disappoint, stand out, or really get in trouble. So for the most part she did what she thought was the right thing and when she was not doing the right thing… Well a secret would be born. What you’ll find in this blog is story about a girl who starts having sex young, was pregnant 6 times, by the age of 24, had 3 abortions, 1 miscarriage (didn’t even realize she was pregnant), married, divorced, at the peak of her career made $350,000, joined the military, smoked some pot, traveled, dad was in the picture sometimes and some times not when she was younger, mother had trouble keeping a job so we lived with grandparents, had many sexual partners, got to know God (still getting to know God), found her voice, had a daughter who tried to commit suicide at least once, she also got an abortion and finally remarried to a wonderful man and making a whole lot less then the $350k from the peak of her career. More ups then downs, but always trying to keep going. Let me know what question you have. I’ll come back in a week to start digging into her youth. We may take some diversions into adulthood, but I’ll try to stay focused.